December 11th

Simone Ellis

December 11th, 2024

It is raining outside. It is cold and bleak

Just

Like

You.

My heart starts pounding as I walk into that school

Faster and

Faster until it almost explodes.

This is what you have done.

I begin panicking before the first class has even begun,

Because I’m afraid that you are there at school.

Afraid that you might say or do something so unhinged…

I’m so afraid of you

That I look side to side every time I leave a room,

To make sure you aren’t there.

Seeing you in the halls even starts to panic me—

I’m told there is nothing to worry about,

That what you did wasn’t even that deep

I’m afraid of you.

I’m afraid that you will threaten me again,

I’m afraid that you might do something—

I’m afraid

of

you.